January 23, 2005
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Yesterday I formally surrendered. I gave up hoping that Mystery Girl will somehow fall in love with me. After a talk with one of her close friends, I found out that Mystery Girl is still trying to work things out between herself and another man. This was a fact I was completely unaware of, and now I feel like a fool and a bastard for interfering. I can only imagine the quiet hell I must have put her through. The woman is no fool; she must have known how I still felt about her. But now I will let go of that high flying kite and content myself with being her friend. That in itself is a great privilege to be merely that, as was evident at the concert last night. We had a wonderful time attempting to dance and having a hilariously fun time failing to do so. Sharing in her joy was simply wonderful. Though a part of me wishes I could do so every day and sometimes be the cause of that joy, I love her enough to let her go. I think it was the Dalai Lama that said, “The perfect relationship is one in which a person’s love for the other exceeds their need for that person.” Something along those lines. Anyways, I’ve always believed in loving that way; a love that is so strong you would be willing to let that person go if that is what they wanted. It’s tough, but then again, what would it be worth if it was easy? I think oftentimes value lies in the struggle. Who wants to get an Olympic Gold Medal handed to them just because they showed up? What war was won without blood and sweat?
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Hm.. well actually they’re artsy lingere pictures? It’s hard to explain. They’re not degrading in anyway, just artsy.
very true… I don’t know if I could do it myself, though. Especially remaining in a position as a friend, where you always see that person and wonder what could’ve been. I couldn’t put myself through that kind of hell… Especially since it could really tie a friendship up in arms. That’s just me, however. You’re made of much sterner stuff than I if you can. Have a great week!
Tru dat!
Oh, and I like the “new look and feel”, but it’s slightly difficult to read the text in some places. Just my thoughts…
I love you bro, and you are such a strong person.
I’ll try and fix that text problem this evening. Thanks for the input Bri!!!!!
forgot that movie comes out this year… Yet another one I want to see this summer. Batman Begins, Hitchhiker’s guide, SWEIII, War of the Worlds… way too many good flicks coming out this summer. Have a great week!
thanks for your comments, they were sweet
lol… same here. The advice is great, just everyone I seem to be vying for already has someone in their life. The misery of being single! I guess that also means I have to retract my previous statement on this page, because somehow I’m stuck in almost a similar situation… I still have no clues as to the availability of the news editor on staff, and she keeps tossing me so many mixed signals… She wants to meet my family, because she thinks they sound cool. She likes hearing stories about my messed up life… But then, I hear whispers about a graduated Wartburg student coming up to visit her. It’s driving me absolutely batty, but I wouldn’t trade this friendship in for all the gold in the world. Why does the world of love/relationships have to be so freaking complicated? Why can’t there just be something like a necklace or wristband people wear when they’re in a relationship? gotta go. Have a great week!
Bummer, Dude.
Addendum to Nate’s: Girls should not flirt with you when they’re romantically engaged with someone else, dammit.
/Flashbacks to last semester.
I’m sure she will really appreciate the friendship that much more after all is said and done. It may not have worked out the way you wanted it to, but love rarely does. Love is complicated. But she is definitely priveledged to have such a good friend.