April 13, 2005

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  How do you convince a woman that she deserves to be loved by a good man? Even if that man is not me, how do I convince her of that? Mystery Girl has not finished reading my letter because she feels that she is not good enough for anyone. I used to feel that way about myself, but I rose above it. If God loved me enough to hand His only son to the wolves (so to speak) surely I have enough worth to be loved by someone else. And I know she feels the same way as far as theology is concerned, and yet she feels like she does not deserve the love of a good man. I hope that I can, if nothing else, convince her that she DOES deserve to be loved otherwise I don’t know what will come of this whole endeavor.

  
  

      How strange, to think that going into this I felt that it was I that was not deserving of her. Yet I hoped, and prayed, and tried to earn her, tried to convince her that I wasn’t just some schmuck with a crush. I don’t think it is possible to deserve anything so wonderful as being truly loved by another person. I think it is something that is earned and then given. I hope I can earn her, and then be given her. If not, well, we’ll see. Don’t worry Xanga; you’ll know when I do. Take care all.

  
  

  

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