February 12, 2003
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Hmm. . . it is getting lateish. I’ve been thinking a lot about this whole Valentine’s Day thing and for some reason it makes me feel very sad because it reminds me of love, and love has done nothing but bring me great pain and misfortune. Still I long for it, I know someday I’ll touch it and things will be better. I kind of feel like that stupid raccoon that tries to climb the electric fence to get into the garden but gets shocked and thrown to the dirt every time but he thinks that someday that fence will be off and I’ll get some nice food for a change. Not that I’d eat my girlfriend. you know what I mean anyways. So yeah, hmm, well I hope you all check here on Valentine’s Day. There will be something special here for you, unless you are a guy. Heh, yeah. . . that wouldn’t be right. Also I might, I MIGHT just start explaining my past experiences with love. That way you all will know me a little better and I don’t just sound like some sorry little guy who just kept getting rejected. It goes way beyond simple rejection. It involves cold hearts, mistakes, tragedy, and (dramatic music) treachery. Betrayal. I even started writing a Shakespearian-style play based closely on my high school years. I got part way into act 2 before I forgot to work on it any more. . . maybe I should finish it. It is pretty good. Say, since nobody reads my story maybe I should post the play on here. . . hehe. Who knows. Whatever you people want. your wish is my command. Well, until next blog goodnight and I hope you all sleep well and dream the sweetest dreams.
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Hey, i love how life throws us all curve balls. You’re not alone n your feelings on V-Day… I look around at all the happy couples and realize that I’m angry with myself because I have never experienced what they have and want to. There’s a whole world outside of my reach and as an author, I should strive to experience it once so I could write the sensations down it gives me and personify them to my characters in my stories… In this world they say that there’s one perfect person for everyone, but it’s a very rare chance that you will find them. Right now, I’m still looking towards the horizon, waiting for the time when I’ll finally be able to reach out to the world I haven’t experienced and make a contact with it, for however long or short they determine my contact needs to be… On a lighter note, guess who won tickets to a show I can’t attend? Me! I won two tickets to the Star Wars Trilogy in 30 Minutes in California, and cant even use them… (don’t ask me why I even participated in the contest, It was just for fun). And, if you want to view myy own twisted views over Valentine’s Day, visit my site on Friday… Trust me, it isn’t going to be uplifting…
aww.. *hugs*
hey hey….. please, do post your play on here.
besides that, i am fascinated with love. the whole concept of it, and what it can do *and* mangle. which is why even sans a significant other, i have always loved valentines day. and please, also explain your expriences with love. and, i know this for a fact, don’t put your guard up. someday, somewhere…. there will be someone out there for you who is *perfect* fo you. ( i am one of those people who believes that) just don’t get so caught up as to not see them when they arrive. and be patient.
have a great day jake!! the week is half over!! yayyyyy!!!!
Oh I am by no means putting my guard up. See I’ve come to feel that my search for love was like looking for the Holy Grail; the harder you look the more it eludes you. So I’ve kind of given up looking and I instead am hoping that someday it finds me. Again, I’ll be explaining past experiences shortly. Hope you find them interesting. This stuff only happens in the movies! hehe. . . yeah.