September 9, 2005

  • I was going to update, but everything I typed just vanished. I can’t do anything right. Hopefully I can at least figure out how to sleep. Goodnight.

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  • Jake, you know that line above isn’t true. You might have made a mistake, but we all do in life. We learn from them. We overcome them. We do it again. We learn. We adapt. Some mistakes are more painful than others. Some, we’re afraid to make. You took a chance, though. That’s better than I can say for myself.

    You are a truly magnificent person and remarkable friend. To read your blog has been heart wrenching for me, and the last one wanted to make me yell at you before you made a mistake. I understand you’re a romantic, but if living with 3 females most of the summer has taught me anything, it is that you need to back off after upsetting them or pissing them off. They need time to get their feelings straight, just like we do. Invading on that space could have turned out much worse for you.

    I know I’m probably the worst person to get advice from in this field, because my record is a remarkable zero. Plus, I am in the same Catch-22 you were in: pining after someone who might not reciprocate those feelings. The other day, I started to realize how stupid that was.

    At the same time, I’m not able to get rid of my feelings, because it is a form of hope, and for some odd reason, hope is something I need at the moment. I think it has to do with the uncertainty I’m facing coming with my senior year. In some ways, I’m hoping that I’ll find resolution in one portion of my life. At the same time, though, I’ve started to adapt to the fact that I might end up alone as well.

    Now, I know it is frustrating when Xanga loses a post, but your phrase about not doing anything right is not true. If anything, you’re a great friend to several people. Just look at the comments you average on a post. You write superbly. You listen to people’s problems. You give terrific comments on others posts. You’re a great friend.

    And I know I’m one to speak about self-depreciating statements, but that is due more to my upbringing and past. Some scars run deeper than the surface and though they heal, they heal much differently.

    Wow this is a long comment to a 2 sentence post, but I just wanted to say that I hurt with you. You are a terrific man, and emotions are tricky water for anyone. When it comes to emotions, I truly am a coward, too. Acting on them takes a lot of courage, and denying in your heart something you truly wanted is even harder. You are a true romantic, Jake. For that, I salute you.

    Have a great week, and I’ll talk at ya later.

    Your friend,

    Nathan C.

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