THE FOURTH AND FINAL PAGE OF THE MYSTERY GIRL LETTER
As I come to the closing of this letter, I wish to make it known that my love for you FAR outweighs my need for you. Do you understand this? I will love you for the rest of my life, be it one moment past your reading of this letter or a million years. My heart is yours forever, even if you do not love me the same way in return. I have waited many months to ask you a daring question, and I hope that it does not bring you any pain or discomfort, but I cannot contain it much longer and I certainly could not contain it over the course of the summer. Mystery Girl, how do you feel about me? Should I love you as a friend, or do you wish me to love you as a man loves a woman? Please understand this too; that I am not asking us to be a couple right now. I can wait as long as you wish, until you are ready. I understand that you are busy, that you wish to focus on other things for the time being. I want you to know that I can wait as long as you need me to. I will wait until you graduate from UNI if you ask me to, I will wait until you finish grad school if you ask me to, and I will wait until the LAST DAY if you ask me to; any wait would be worth it but only if I know that you are waiting at the end. If I am the man you want, please, claim me. I will put myself on a shelf so high that only God and you could possibly reach it. I would turn away the heart of Aphrodite herself if I knew that I would have your love one day. Please, I must know what you wish of me. Do not fear the truth, no matter how brutal. You cannot harm me with it; only a lie could do so. My love can wait; it will not go anywhere without you. It will not lessen or diminish in any way.
Do you understand what I ask? Merely tell me what you wish of me, and it will be done. I love you so much that you could tell me that you wish for us only ever to be friends, nothing more, and I will grant you only friendship and I will love you only as is proper between friends. I would throw all my romantic hopes and dreams aside at your asking. You have only but to ask. I will not give up on you, I will not surrender unless that surrender is a gift I give you out of love. Please, I beg of you, I must know how you feel. Even if you are unsure, let me know if it is all right to remain hopeful, to continue dreaming, to continue to write you poetry, to continue to hear a symphony in your voice, to continue to see the beauty of nature in your form, to continue to smell the summer cornfields in your hair and roses upon your breath, to continue to feel silk in your skin, to imagine the taste of honey in your kiss, to so strongly love the soul I see within you. If you wish me never to feel this way again, tell me and it will be so. I will banish all these thoughts, these feelings and you will never have to fear this heart again.
Again, please forgive me if this letter brought anything unpleasant to you. I ask only for a reply of some nature in your own time so I know what life I am to live from this moment on. God bless you Mystery Girl, and I thank you with all that I have for taking a moment to consider the contents of this letter.
All that I am, “Ancient Scribe”
“What happiness to reign a lonely king,
Vext- O ye stars that shudder over me,
O earth that soundest hollow under me,
Vext with waste dreams? for saving I’d be join’d
To her that is the fairest under heaven,
I seem as nothing in the mighty world,
And cannot will my will, nor work my work
Wholly, nor make myself in mine own realm
Victor and lord. But were I join’d with her,
Then might we live together as one life,
And reigning with one will in everything
Have power on this dark land to lighten it,
And power on this dead world to make it live.”
-From “Idylls of the King”
There you have it ladies and gentlemen. The Infamous Letter. I haven’t received any form of a reply, nor has she acknowledged having read it. Tomorrow (Thursday) she is planning on coming to visit me, and it is during that visit I will speak with her about it. Hopefully by this time tomorrow I will know what is going on. Thank you all for reading, thank you to those who have commented and please, for those who have not read the entire letter, do so. You might learn something.